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.Little did they know that he didnʼt.Theyʼd never know how he overdosed in one of the bathroom stalls in Boozerʼs with some girl heʼd gotten high with.They would definitely never know how he did it on purpose, swallowing an entire bottle of Oxycontin before shooting up heroin, as the drunken girl lying next to him giggled.He killed himself by overdosing on purpose, when he could have been someone amazing.He didn’t deserve to be on this earth, there was no way anyone could save that soul.Lucky me though, my soul got thrown into his body, yea me…wooowhooo.This human life sucks.Ethan took one look at us and bellowed a throaty laugh.“Hey, Grace.Here to listen to us?”She gave him a small nod and a beautiful smile.He winked at me and smiled wider, “Thatʼs great.Shane never lets chicks come down here.” There he goes, throwing me under a bus.I walked ahead of Grace as she took her coat off and made herself comfortable.I grabbed one of my acoustic guitars and sat myself on the floor.I strummed a chord, debating if I should play the melody that has been haunting my dreams since the first night I met her.“Girls shouldnʼt be allowed down here.I canʼt find my muse if some chick is trying to suck on my neck,” I laughed.“Besides, itʼs Grace.Sheʼs just one of the guys.”I wanted to say more.I wanted to tell her the fucked up crazy feelings that she was creating in my head.Instead, I decided I would play her the haunting melody.There was no way she’d understand the notes and the emotions from it, but at least I could get my feelings out to her the only way I could.I closed my eyes and let the notes breathe their sounds, filling the room with my sadness.Slow, melancholy notes twirled through the air.So sad and haunting, it almost hurt to play them.When I opened my eyes, Grace was kneeling in front of me hugging her arms around her stomach, fists clenched tight.Her features held an anguished expression, her eyes shining and feverish.I held her gaze and sang the words, just to her.Never thought love would speak my nameCalling me out from the shadowsSo long I have been hiddenBeneath the surface, where the darkness flowsYou breathed life into meThe minute my eyes found yoursWaking me from my lonely graveLeaving footprints along my deserted shoresI know you’ll never knowHow it feels to me when you say my nameOr the inferno you create in meWith your simple flameOur eyes held each other’s long after I stopped playing and the air between us was thick with feeling.I knew then, she had to feel something for me, something was just stopping her from taking a chance on me.“That was the most intense song I have ever heard, dude! That was crazy! Play that again and lemme find a good beat,” Ethan said.“Yea, sure, Ethan,” I answered.I didnʼt look at Grace for the rest of the time.I couldnʼt.I just bared my soul to her and sheʼd never know it was really her I was singing about, never know she was the one who brought me back from being too much like Shane, to give me hope.To want to be a better man.Brayden and Alex showed up to practice and soon my mind was fully on my music, my muse sitting in front of me unaware of her spell over me.Some time later that day, Grace quietly said goodbye to everyone and headed for the studio door.I offered her a low, “Night, Grace.”I watched as she walked away and my chest emptied.I couldnʼt let her go.I jumped after her and caught up with her by the stairs.“Sorry, Grace, I get really involved in there,” I explained.“Why would you be sorry? Listening to you guys play was epic.You guys sound even better without all the screaming half-naked girls,” she grinned and bit down on her bottom lip.Holy hell, was she flirting with me?My heart leapt at her words and her smile.“Iʼll walk you home,” I offered as I walked with her up the stairs and toward the front door.“Thatʼs not necessary, go back to practice,” she said touching my arm lightly.I was about to take her hand in mine when an icy chill blew in from the open door.“Iʼll walk her home for you,” Tuckerʼs voice called from the door.Grace and I both jerked our heads up at the sound of his voice.He was dressed in his work clothes.His briefcase dangled from his shoulder like a womanʼs pocketbook.“Thatʼs okay, itʼs only a few blocks,” Grace said.“Well, itʼs dark out and a beautiful girl like you should have someone to protect her,” Tucker replied with a slick grin.Fucking Lawyer.“Iʼll get her home, Shane, you can go back to practice.”She moved forward and I took that as her way of ending my disagreeing with Tucker.“Great.Thanks Tuck.Night, Grace,” I said walking back down the stairs.When I got to the basement, I leaned against the wall of the hallway and bent down; I could barely breathe without her.“Michael? Gabriel? Please, tell me what the hell is going on!” I growled under my breath.“I don’t belong here, this is worse than hell.” Silence answered my prayers.No surprise there
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