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.His captors.Their helmets and their costumes.The torches which they carried that were made of hollow pipes filled with oil and wicks of rope and the flames which were sheltered from the wind by panes of isinglass set into taming and roofed and flued with beaten copper sheet.He tried to see into their eyes but those eyes were dark and they had shadowed them with blacking like men called upon to traverse wastes of snow.Or sand.He tried to see their feet how they were shod but their robes fell over the rocks about them and he could not.What he saw was the strangeness of the world and how little was known and how poorly one could prepare for aught that was to come.He saw that a man's life was little more than an instant and that as time was eternal therefore every man was always and eternally in the middle of his journey, whatever be his years or whatever distance he had come.He thought he saw in the world's silence a great conspiracy and he knew that he himself must then be a part of that conspiracy and that he had already moved beyond his captors and their plans.If he had any revelation it was this: that he was repository to this knowing which he came to solely by his abandonment of every former view.And with this he turned to his captors and he said: I will tell you nothing.I will tell you nothing.That is what he said and that is all he said.In the next moment they led him to the stone and laid him down upon it and they raised up the girl from her pallet and led her forward.Her bosom was heaving.Her what?Her bosom was heaving.Go ahead.She leaned and kissed him and stepped away and then the archatron came forward with his sword and raised it in his two hands above him and clove the traveler's head from his body.I guess that was the end of that.Not at all.I suppose you're fixin to tell me he survived havin his head lopped off.Yes.He woke from his dream and sat shivering with cold and fright.In the selfsame desolate pass.The selfsame barren range of mountains.The selfsame world.And you?The narrator smiled wistfully, like a man remembering his childhood.These dreams reveal the world also, he said.We wake remembering the events of which they are composed while often the narrative is fugitive and difficult to recall.Yet it is the narrative that is the life of the dream while the events themselves are often interchangeable.The events of the waking world on the other hand are forced upon us and the narrative is the unguessed axis along which they must be strung.It falls to us to weigh and sort and order these events.It is we who assemble them into the story which is us.Each man is the bard of his own existence.This is how he is joined to the world.For escaping from the world's dream of him this is at once his penalty and his reward.So.I might have woken then myself but as the world neared so did the traveler upon his rock begin to fade and as I was not yet willing to part company with him I called out to him.Did he have a name?No.No name.What did you call?I simply called upon him to stay and stay he did and so I slept on and the traveler turned to me and waited.I guess he was surprised to see you.A good question.He seemed indeed to be surprised and yet in dreams it is often the case that the greatest extravagances seem bereft of their power to astonish and the most improbable chimeras appear commonplace.Our waking life's desire to shape the world to our convenience invites all manner of paradox and difficulty.All in our custody seethes with an inner restlessness.But in dreams we stand in this great democracy of the possible and there we are right pilgrims indeed.There we go forth to meet what we shall meet.I got another question.You want to know if the traveler knew that he'd been dreaming.If indeed he had been dreaming.Like you say, you've told the story before.Yes.What's the answer.You might not like it.That ought not to stop you.He asked me the same question.He wanted to know if he'd been dreaming? Yes.What did he say? He asked me if I had seen them.Them people with the robes and the candles and all.Yes.And.Well.I had.Of course.So that's what you told him.I told him the truth.Well it would have served as well for a lie wouldnt it? Because? If it caused him to believe that what he dreamt was real.Yes.You see the difficulty.Billy leaned and spat.He studied the landscape to the north.I better get on, he said.I got a ways to go.You have people waiting for you? I hope so.I sure would like to see them.He wished me to be his witness.But in dreams there can be no witness.You said as much yourself.It was just a dream.You dreamt him.You can make him do whatever you like.Where was he before I dreamt him? You tell me.My belief is this, and I say it again: His history is the same as yours or mine.That is the stuff he is made o£ What stuff other? Had I created him as God makes men how then would I not know what he would say before he ever spoke? Or how he'd move before he did so? In a dream we dont know what's coming.We are surprised.All right.So where is it coming from?I dont know.Two worlds touch here.You think men have power to call forth what they will? Evoke a world, awake or sleeping? Make it breathe and then set out upon it figures which a glass gives back or which the sun acknowledges? Quicken those figures with one's own joy and one's despair? Can a man be so hid from himself? And if so who is hid? And from whom?You call forth the world which God has formed and that world only.Nor is this life of yours by which you set such store your doing, however you may choose to tell it.Its shape was forced in the void at the onset and all talk of what might otherwise have been is senseless for there is no otherwise.Of what could it be made? Where be hid? Or how make its appearance? The probability of the actual is absolute.That we have no power to guess it out beforehand makes it no less certain.That we may imagine alternate histories means nothing at all.So is that the end of the story?No.The traveler stood at the stone and on the stone visible to see were marks of axe and sword and the dark oxidations of the blood of those who'd died there and which the weathers of the world were powerless to erase.Here the traveler had lain down to sleep with no thought of death and yet when he awoke he'd no thought other
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