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.It was obvious that Gibbs knew everythingand she was grateful for that.One thing she had noticed very early on at NCIS was that Tonydidn't take very good care of himself, be it injuries or eating right and she was glad that Gibbswas there for him now.She wasn't too sure about the relationship between Tony and Gibbs,she had used to think it was a Father Son thing but now she wasn't so sure.Tony still clearlylooked up to Gibbs and Gibbs was definitely fond of Tony but there was nothing familial aboutit.She couldn't place her finger on what had changed but something had, recently they hadbeen acting differently and she wasn't sure if it was just because of what was going on withTony's Father or if it was something else as well.Tony hesitated in answering.He knew he had to tell McGee some of what was going on but hewasn't sure the younger agent would be able to understand it as well as Ziva had.McGee hadgrown up with a loving and caring family; his home life had been everything Tony wanted histo have been.He wasn't sure McGee would be able to comprehend being that afraid of yourown Father and he didn't think he would be able to treat him the same.Ziva had enoughexperience with the cruelties of the world to be able to act as if nothing had changed butMcGee didn't and he didn't want to have to deal with him treating like he was another victim.He still harbored that slight fear that McGee would think he was pathetic, not being able tostand up to his Father but Gibbs had managed to convince him for the most part that his fearwas unfounded and so he shoved any remaining doubts to the back of his mind.He got up and grabbed McGee's shoulder."Come on, let's get coffee."McGee looked a little uncertain as he was dragged away from the bullpen, chancing a glanceat Ziva who was studiously watching her computer screen."Um, ok.No one s died have they?"A smile drifted onto Tony's face as they walked."No, no one died."McGee looked at Tony.He had a feeling that this was going to have something to do withyesterday's phone call and how Tony had been acting recently.He had noticed that todayTony hadn't been acting like he normally did but he also wasn't acting withdrawn like he hadbeen recently as well.He had seen glimpses of Tony when he was like this but it was oftenmasked by an obnoxious joke, an attempt to stop people looking too deep.He was hoping thatTony had realized that he didn't need to act around them, they were his friends.They may allbe used to the loud jock act that Tony put on and they knew that act better than the real Tonybut they all knew that Tony had a lot more going for him than he realized and they wantedhim to trust them enough to be himself."I'm taking a guess here Tony but has this got anything to do with yesterday?""Yeah," Tony said softly, "it does."They walked into the break room and McGee sat down on one of the hard chairs while Tonymade some coffee.He really didn't actually want coffee Tony thought to himself as he made it.He just needed achance to figure out what he was going to say to McGee.He wasn't going to tell him anymorethan what he had told Ziva but he didn't think McGee would be able to resist asking questionslike Ziva had and he wasn't sure he could handle that.He was aware that Ziva had probablyjumped to the wrong conclusions when he told her it was his Father phoning and causing problems, Gibbs had even thought that at first, they all thought that his Father had abusedhim as a child.In a way he had but not in the traditional sense of the word."Tony, what's going on?" McGee asked slowlyTony turned and sat down in front of McGee handing him a mug of coffee."I don't even knowwhere to start Tim."The fact that Tony had used his first name showed him that whatever this was it was serious.Tony hardly ever called him Tim and when he did it usually wasn't under good circumstances.He would never admit it but he had gotten used to the names Tony had called him and heknew if Tony was calling him Probie then nothing was seriously wrong."How about from the beginning?"Tony winced, "I don't think I can do that right now, sorry.""It's ok.You don't have to tell me if you don't want to.I'm not going to get angry at you oranything like that."It was that statement that gave Tony the push he needed to tell McGee what he had told Ziva."The phone call yesterday was from my Father." He blurted out.McGee couldn't keep the surprise of his face.Tony's reaction yesterday had indicated thatwhoever was on the phone held some pretty bad memories for Tony but he had neverexpected it would be his Father.Tony continued before he lost the nerve to say anymore."And he phoned twice today, Gibbsspoke to him the second time which is why he's so pissed."McGee knew that Tony's relationship with his Father was strained but he had no idea it wasthis bad.Right now he could only see one reason why Tony would react that way to a phonecall from his Father."Can I ask you something?"Tony nodded, "I think I know what it is you want to know and the answers no.He didn't beatme or anything like that.Whatever else you're thinking he did is probably wrong too."Now McGee was just confused, Tony was right he had been thinking along those lines but nowhe had no idea what to think."Well then what.""I can t tell you now, Tim" Tony said grimacing."I want to but I just can't do it."McGee could see that just telling him this much had been incredibly hard for Tony and hedidn't want to push him for more no matter how curious he was.He had always found caseswhere family members were the culprits the hardest to understand.He couldn't even imaginewanting to hurt any one in his family and he couldn't see them wanting to hurt him.Althoughhe couldn't comprehend it he knew families weren't all like his and he had seen how bad theycould be.From what he had seen recently Tony's Father must have hurt him pretty badly tohave cause the reaction yesterday and the erratic behavior over the past few months. "I eat fine," Tony said indignantly trying unsuccessfully to use his chopsticks.Gibbs watched amused as Tony grinned finally grabbing a piece and then promptly dropped iton his shirt."No, you don't, you snack on crap but you forget to eat meals."Tony picked off the offending item dropping into his mouth, "Only sometimes." He tried againwith the chopsticks but they wouldn't cooperate."That's it I'm getting a fork."Gibbs grabbed his arm stopping him."No, look I'll show you." He placed his hand over Tony's,"you're holding it wrong," he said maneuvering Tony's hand into the correct position.Tony allowed Gibbs calloused hand to direct him allowing him to successfully pick up a piece ofchicken and drop it in his mouth.Tony swallowed, shivering slightly at Gibbs' close proximity,"Thanks," he said huskily.Gibbs mouth quirked up into a crooked smile as he returned his attentions to his own meal.They ate in a companionable silence with Gibbs occasionally helping Tony with his meal.Once they had finished they settled back down on the couch, Tony lying down resting his headin Gibbs' lap.He let out a little sigh of pleasure as Gibbs started running his fingers throughhis hair causing Gibbs to chuckle."You're such a hedonist," he said amused as Tony moved his head further into his hand."Nothing wrong with that," Tony said contently
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