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.Is this the first timethose guys touched you? Tommy asked. Yes.I would ve told if they d done anything other thanthreaten me before. Tommy s hand was on the bed between Gom and him.Aftera couple of minutes of silence, he felt Gom s hand on his.Heglanced up and saw that there was something on Gom s mind. What is it? Can I ask you something? Gom said, eyes moving from hisand then back again. Of course, Tommy said. You like Daniel, don t you? I mean, more than like him? Gom asked, his eyes wide now. TOMMY S STORY 57Honesty was the only way Tommy knew to go here. Yes.I min love with Daniel. Wow. Those eyes got even bigger. How d you know? Areyou sure? What do the dads think about it? Are they freakedout? Have you ? That question stopped him cold.Tommycould tell Gom had more he wanted to know, but was afraid tocause Tommy any pain by asking.He and Gom had talked a lot,years ago, about what had happened to each of them.They feltsafe telling each other anything.Tommy knew what Gom waswondering. I ve felt this way for a long time.I m sure about this, and thedads are fine with it, not freaked at all.As to the other, Danieland I have done a lot of stuff together, Tommy had to chucklea little as he added, in the twenty four hours since we finallyadmitted to our feelings for each other.He stayed with me lastnight and I let him do things, wanted him to do things I neverthought I could.I m not afraid of it anymore. Good.That s good.He ll be gentle with you, won t he? Hewon t hurt you? Gom as a teenager, was a lot like Gom had beenat eight.He cared more about other people than anyone Tommyknew, and considering his dads and Daniel, that was saying alot.Gom just loved with such a big heart.It was clear that hewouldn t like it if Daniel hurt Tommy in any way. It s good, Gom.He s really careful with me since he knowseverything.We re going to be a great couple, like Soldier andDillon.We ll work together helping other kids like you and I usedto be, and we ll love each other and be there for each other whenwe need support. I m glad, Tommy.I m happy for you.So, you think& if Iwas to be& I mean, if it turns out that I m& you know& Gomseemed to be at a loss for words, but Tommy knew. Gay? Gom ducked his head, now refusing to look at Tommy. Yeah, he whispered. Are you? Tommy asked, sitting still and waiting. 58 AKM Miles I don t know.I just know I m not interested in girls.SandraSouthland likes me and wanted me to kiss her.I did, but it wasno big deal.I wasn t that into it.Then, she wanted me to touchher boobs, but I was like, no way! All the other guys would beslobbering over her.She s a hottie.But it just doesn t turn meon. Do guys? Tommy asked, giving this conversation theattention and sincerity it deserved. I don t know.Not anybody in particular.I ve only, well,one time& you re going to think I m awful, Gom said, againducking his head. Doubt it.Tell me.One time, what? Tommy asked. One time, in the middle of the night, I went downstairs toget something to eat and I heard something in the den.I thoughteveryone else was asleep.I went to check it out.It sounded funny,like a song, but not really.It was Soldier, humming.Tommy, hewas humming, and he and Dillon were dancing together.Theywere holding each other so tight and Dillon s head was onSoldier s shoulder and Soldier had his hand in Dillon s hair andhis face was stuck in Dillon s neck. Tommy noticed Gom s eyeswere huge and a little wet as he talked. What d you do? he asked. I froze.It was& it was beautiful, Tommy.They never sawme, but I went back upstairs, and all I could think about all nightwas how much I wanted to feel what I know they were feeling foreach other.Is that like, bad or perverted or something? Not at all; it sounds beautiful like you said.Don t you worryabout it since you re not into anybody right now.Just take thingsas they come.If you fall for someone and need to talk, you knowI ll be here for you.You know Soldier and Dillon will, too.Rightnow, get some sleep.I ll see you tomorrow. -ð -ð -ðTommy settled into Daniel s waiting arms after locking theapartment door and finding him on the couch. TOMMY S STORY 59 Gom okay? Daniel asked, pulling Tommy to him. Yeah, he will be.We talked a little.He thinks he might be gay.How weird is that? Of all us boys, only the two who were actuallyadopted by Soldier and Dillon turn out to be gay
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